New Mommy Files, Part 17
It’s “pass the baby” time. Raine and I had to pack up after I came home from work Friday night and haul down the road six hours to the grandparents so they can watch her for a few days. Lately I feel like I just have visitation rights. On one hand I’m very grateful I can work things so she can stay with family while I am at work. On the other hand, it comes at the cost of spending lots of time with her. It was nice last week. My sister watched her during the day and I just had a sleepover at her house. But it’s always a tradeoff: No time. Evening time, but I don't stay at my own home. Daddy watch her during the day, so I come home to her in the evenings at our own home, but when daddy is home during the day, daddy isn’t making money. Bad for everyone!
So I’m writing this to you from the country and mentally preparing myself to leave her behind. Who knew having a baby would turn your world around so much? I had an idea. But, really, I had no idea.
But Raine is almost eight months old and we are hanging in there. She has such a strong will and I can see the determination. She still looks just like her daddy, teeth and all. And I can finally put her hair in a ponytail. That’s the one thing she has in common with me; my hair in a ponytail is all that I can muster. But the baby is away you say? I know. But that only means that mommy works longer hours. I haven’t gotten this “me time” thing down yet.
One thing I do know is that having a little girl around makes me want to do more. I wonder if I would feel the way if I had a boy. I feel the need to set a path that she may want to follow. I want her to see me enjoying my work, taking care of myself, being self-sufficient. Oh the pressure. I’m working on it, but I admit I have a long way to go. Right now all I can think about is hitting the road tomorrow for that long trek home. But I’ll count my blessings. There’s nothing better than spending time with the grandparents. I remember the summers with mine and I’m glad that Raine gets to experience it, not only with her grandparents but her great-grandmother, too! What great memories are being made! How's that for looking at the bright side?
Marcia Caster
Senior Editor, Beauty and Fashion
mcaster@heartandsoul.com
So I’m writing this to you from the country and mentally preparing myself to leave her behind. Who knew having a baby would turn your world around so much? I had an idea. But, really, I had no idea.
But Raine is almost eight months old and we are hanging in there. She has such a strong will and I can see the determination. She still looks just like her daddy, teeth and all. And I can finally put her hair in a ponytail. That’s the one thing she has in common with me; my hair in a ponytail is all that I can muster. But the baby is away you say? I know. But that only means that mommy works longer hours. I haven’t gotten this “me time” thing down yet.
One thing I do know is that having a little girl around makes me want to do more. I wonder if I would feel the way if I had a boy. I feel the need to set a path that she may want to follow. I want her to see me enjoying my work, taking care of myself, being self-sufficient. Oh the pressure. I’m working on it, but I admit I have a long way to go. Right now all I can think about is hitting the road tomorrow for that long trek home. But I’ll count my blessings. There’s nothing better than spending time with the grandparents. I remember the summers with mine and I’m glad that Raine gets to experience it, not only with her grandparents but her great-grandmother, too! What great memories are being made! How's that for looking at the bright side?
Marcia Caster
Senior Editor, Beauty and Fashion
mcaster@heartandsoul.com
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